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high fidelity
There are things I remember about all of you. There are memories imprinted in my head of the most basic of love.
I remember lying on this kid's bed and pretending to be asleep and you holding my hand. I thought it was true love until we broke up. We dated for 8 months. I was in 7th grade.
I remember football games and New Year's Eve. I remember sleeping in your closet floor. I remember watching Pink Floyd's Berlin performance on VHS tape and you singing the words to me very softly while we made out on your bed. You were the first thing I ever loved. We dated for 3 years. I was in my freshman year.
I remember skipping school to play Final Fantasy. I remember the sex, it was bad. I remember you showing up at my house reeking of weed and slamming the door in your face. I hated you and you were a rebound. We dated for 3 months. I was in my sophomore year.
I remember loving you more than anything I ever loved. I remember feeling like I had really found "the one". I remember feeling like the luckiest girl in the world until you broke my heart two weeks later. You abused me and cheated on me and I have never felt so worthless. You did so for two years. I just graduated.
I think I am starting to love you. And that is where this story ends for the time being.
11:07 am - 16 June 2010
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